long posts ahead

today I took the activity bus home : it left the school at aprox. 4.30pm and I am home now, 5.37pm : the driver said that she got off an hour early this time : so in the event that there were the normal number of students I would be here at 6.37pm posting this : how very entertaining to know that my time is something I could care less to keep : many changes I've got to make in my lifestyle > and many changes I have been avoiding for the longest of times ( does anyone realise that I am almost 20 years of age? )

I wrote a poem on the bus while I was sitting, alone, looking out the window : a fun side-note > I spend most of my time watching things "pass me by" - I spend most of my time in the passenger seat of a car - I look outside the window and the world just zooms by : since I was a child I use to enjoy watching the zooming-by world and notice patterns in it : such as the telephone poles and so on > and here I am in another way > in school > letting my friends, my close associates, and even my loved one's just pass on by > and I don't seem to mind a bit... it really gets on my nerves sometimes > and so thats one of the big "changes" I'm going to try to impliment : to take control of the wheel : to get in control of my own life : to be able to be proud of who I am and where I am and not live with my parents > anywho : as I was saying I wrote a poem on the bus today ... here it is :


Outside a window
A tree A flower
A rock or three
__________Cows poop funny
Who gets off at the next stop
Where did I put my - self
My life gets off
__________down the road. Please
Don't stop.


it made you cry > didn't it > i Know you cried : or shed just a little tear for me > please > dont > wipe it off of your face : two tears in a bucket - mother fuck it : yes : another thing I'm attempting to change > I'm a whiny little baby : much to jimmoi's and zach-o's dismay I plan to shed this snake-skin of emo-ness : I'm tired of being a stupid little baby > I want to grow up > I know : I go through these moods like a boswanian whore goes through foreign man-love-mayo : but this time I want to hold on to it and ride the wave : come in on a tidal wave : get a job : make something of my life : and have a situation where I'll be able to DRIVE where I want and PAY for the things I'd like buying for people : much to my own dismay I may even consider the AIR FORCE - but I believe you have to have a diploma for that : for which I will attempt to possibly even DROP OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL and go to PCC > like Zach did ;)

on another note : my mother is gone for two weeks : and I will be at the school until 4.30pm EACH DAY ( with exception to Jimmoi daze ) so if you feel like stopping by and yelling at me feel free to : but the trick of the matter is that I won't tell you where I will be : so if you can't find me then you shouldn't even bother trying to come : or is it that if you can't come then dont bother trying to find me? I don't really know anymore.

Me and Aaron found TZA written in the boy's bathroom : I was curious as to who wrote it and originally thought zach : heh > i laughed : but then we thought of our own manner of promoting TZA and wrote it on MONEY > DEFACE THE GOVERNMENT! > and then we went outside and got the craziest idea to write it on rocks : and so we passed a permanent marker back and forth and giggled much like pot-smoking dumb-fucks while choosing rocks to write TZA on and laughing about how someone will come by see it written on one rock and then go looney about how it is written on plenty of rocks.

ahhh, funny.
ok : that's enough of the post now.