fly be i can live

i think it's all to do with people's perspectives on life : life, in and of itself, is suppose to be this magically wonderful thing that is joyous and stupendeous in nature : where one's wishes can come true and only the best can happen ... these people are generally reguarded as optimists... in fact i rarely use the word that i am not even sure that I've spelled it correctly. it's sad really : when the majority of "awake" people realise that life isn't so fun and isn't so bright and isn't this wondeful and miracualous (notice, another word i rarely use) thing but just living constitutes life they act as if dirt had been thrown in their faces. when the concept of "this is it, and there is no big party afterwards at 8pm" hits them square between the eyes they get depressed. but it isn't all that bad : there are plenty of things to occupy one's time with ... like learning for example.

today i learned how to put on a tie, under, over and through : of course it's jimmoi's tie ... ah haha, wait until he sees it : i dont know... where am going ... or better yet : what difference does it make where i am going? or what i leave behind ( legacy ) ?

a legacy is only good for one thing :
people to make money off of you when you're dead.