Today was a great day for me, and a bad day... I have found the question, the one I have been searching to answer... about the meat robots and nihilism, the fundamental of my philosophic endeavor...Now that I have the question I can search for the answer... Before I begin I would just like to say to James { I think you ought to take control, if for anything just to change, to ensure that life doesn't stop moving... so that you can keep watching the scenery change..}

The matter of the fact [ I was watching something on the discovery channel today, a show about the nature of human civilization. I wasn't paying much attention to what was being said, or what was being argued. I did pay attention to one person though, a middle aged historian with a broad forhead {Spelling?} and a thick set of glasses. He was proposing radical ideas about the nature of humanity, expressing his concern about the huge gaps in our historical knowledge. I found myself asking{why is he proposing these ideas ?} why is he asking these questions ?... I know this man must have spent his life reading, asking questions and searching for the answers. I know he has read thousands of books, I know the feeling of excitement he gets when he comes upon just one compelling answer. He was asking the questions, proposing the theorys because he cares. It is part of being human, the capacity to care for things.... The ability to find one assembly of object matter more important than another based not on its utility, but for {personal} reasons. Art is inherently human, expression and romanticism... The concept of self, concsousness, freedom and happyness.. These don't exist in nature, nature is immoral and full of death and rebirth. Being human is entirely a human characteristic... This man is Human, I am human and you are human.. we hold deer our siblings and friends... In nature most animals eat siblings if there isn't sufficient food for survival.. Only a human would die for a friend {that doesn't even protect his/her DNA ! }... But I am faced with the Void, the question of nihilism, the question of human values.... I realize now this is only the question as to if I am a meat robot, If my body is some kind of survival machine willing to download any survival software {including ideals,morals,convictions} .. This forces my identity of self to be arbitrary .. It says I would be fundamentally a different kind of person if I were born into a different Time/Place/Society... Is there nothing more to {ME ?}... Is there nothing more to {HIM?}.. The question reduces to this... If I were born into nature, would I be nothing more than a savage beast.... dining on the raw flesh of other animals mearly at the charge of primitive impulses ?... Or would I stop and question, reflect, and finally learn.. Would I still retain some of my vital characteristics, would I take pitty on a dieng lamb ? .... Would I collect around me objects to which I associate some meaning, uselessly waist resources to protect these charished things ?.. would I concieve of ideals, my own existance ? ... would this scholor be reduced to an animal, or would I be an animal reduced to a scholar ?.... Is there something fundamentally human to being human... or is it merely a side affect of domestication ??... We don't look for answers James... We look most earnestly for questions....