also : people misconstrue what i mean by "followers"
what i mean is that there are people who "associate" with me.

i dont mean follower as in cult member, or mindless sheep to the shepard - just people who react and i in turn react to.

a closer... more "realistic" manner in which people would understand what i'm trying to say is "I have friends." ...

and that's difficult for me to say. if not realise or admit.

ewwwwwwwwwwwwww
{ goes to take a hot, hot shower }