June 08, 2001

heh, wreaks? WREAKS?
for christ-sakes that is the embodiment of jimmoi-ism.
a sick, perverse sense of love being the eternal "fixer-uper" of all things. Why is it that people cannot love eachother and be the worst thing for eachother? is it not true that sure - you can love someone - but then they'd be the worst possible person that you could ever be with? So with that in mind - lets say that jimmoi accidentally runs over my dog - now let's say i have some sort of emotional bond to my dead dog - now i'm going to be really aggrivated towards jimmoi for killing my dog - am i going to say "thanks for killing my dog, i love you man!" - fuck no - i'm going to run at him with a garden hoe and try to rip him a new hole in his chest cavity.

"C'MERE YOU LITTLE ASIAN YOU!!!"


you see the flaw in that? love isn't all-healing. nor is it some grand superb thing that we all need to flaunt around and stick our big fat heads into and swim around in a swimming pool full of. it's a bloody emotion. now granted - if we want to go with mikes theory about how emotions are entirely just "senses" in a sense [ pun intended ] - then we aren't exactly in control of our emotions - much as we aren't in control of our reaction towards pain - ( hand over flame, hand retracts in pain - natrually ) - and yes : granted that given meditation and/or concentration we can "control" our natrual reactions to some extent.

so which one is right. be a lovely-dovely fsck-head who has no control over your emotions - but lives freely in the realization that they are "living life" as it was "meant to live" - or control your emotions and hope to only "let them out of bottles" when the appropriate time to let them out comes along.

the "good way" is a mix of the two.
unfortunately, people get caught up in one way so much that it becomes common-place, status-quo, and "life itself".

go figure.

and damnit.
i want to see propaganda.

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