this is going to prove : nor state anything in the slightest : merely because at the moment I may be suffering from a re-ripped "soul sickness" that came as a byproduct of last night's FRIDAY - as it has already been informed to the general board. let us begin with my morning >>>
I woke up to the sound of my grand parents walking into the house and saying : hello! hello anyone home?! hello! > and nobody cared to get up and greet them : i don't think they were invited over : and i didn't exactly know who was in the house anyway : that woke me up : and i heard that they were talking about pizza : and i was hungry : so i got up to go eat it.
my grandparents and mother then spoke of what movie to watch while i was sitting on the couch obviously watching the television for my own enjoyment
( note : i found a movie i didnt know the name of : and i will hope to find it one day and force everyone to watch it > as it's a very intresting story > and not my mother, nor both my grandparents enjoyed it > and at the end when they were openly stating how much the movie was pointless and dumb i stood up, turned around towards all of them > and said "You know what? Fuck you all. You and your god-damned idiot brained opinions are the shit I am tired of > why not go watch THE MUMMY TWO if you don't like a movie with a plot for once?" - to which my grandfater stated " what? THE MUMMY TWO is on? well turn it to that!" - i slowly walked my way to my room )
anywho : after i had watched the show { which was so innocent i almost cried } i went and sat down here and read some posts : and the more i read the more i became sick : i believe i'm becoming quite aware of the fact that I have become a social being : i've grown a following : and ( as much as i'd dislike to admit it ) a sort of "sub-culture" and/or "idealogical gang" of some sorts with me being at the point ::: it is making me sick :::
not because of the fact that i'm the fore-runner : but because i'm, in some odd end sort of pathetic manner : a catalyst for catalysts > which makes absolutely no sense : after yelling at Joe last night I started doing some big introspection : and i started figuring out my associations with those around me : and i found that i had a lot of learning to do : and that i wasn't all i thought i should be : and that i probably wanted to be more : that this is still a crysalis stage : in a cocoon of some sorts > a sick sick joke that God is still playing on me.
i have changed from the person i was : we all have : i say we in reference to we as the originals : the first ones : and i've become aware of change : aware of our own dependancies on eachother : and saddened by the idea that if not for eachother - we'd be entirely different people : entirely different ideas : and entirely different places --- that we can take no credit for who we are merely because who we are and what we think are entirely dished to us by our reactions from those around us.
i'm going to gather together another barbeque : but the trick is it wont be a barbeque : and there will be no food : and there will be no god-damned fun : just a bunch of us and we'll talk : not talk about all the important things : but stupid things : things without connotation : the unimportant things > like where we plan to go with our lives > what we're going to do with ourselves > and what we feel will be. i don't know. we'll see if i can pull this off. and it wont be a god-damned social event. i'm sick of social events. not even sick, as much a just tired of them : large groups lose cohesion > either that or entirely undermine that which is TZA - which i'm going to start advocating as nothing more than a bunch of stupid vandalists : heh.
i'm tired of people being nice. i'm tired of people being mean. maybe i'm just tired of people. or maybe not people >
maybe i need to find new people.
THE FIRST DAY OF SUMMER JUNE 21, 2001 THURS EVE,
7 - 10 pm worldwide, all time zones In protest of George W. Bush's energy policies and lack of emphasis on efficiency, conservation and
alternative fuels, there will be a voluntary rolling blackout on the first day of Summer, June 21 at 7 pm - 10 pm in any time zone (this will roll it across the planet bahahahaaha!). It's a simple protest and a symbolic act. Turn out your lights from 7pm - 10pm (your local time) on June 21. Unplug whatever you can unplug in your house.
FiLthGrRL7: Light a candle for the Sun, kiss, make love, play games, tell ghost stories, do something instead of watching television, have fun in the dark. Forward this email as widely as possible,to your government representatives and environmental contacts. Let them know we want global education, participation and funding in conservation, efficiency and alternative energy efforts -- and an end to over exploitation and misuse of the Earth's resources ah hahahah! oh my! hahaha!
FiLthGrRL7: pass it on please
n o t mud:
i believe i will turn on every light, every machine, every energy-sucking eco-fucking product and fill every plug-in socket i have in the household to run my parent's energy bill sky high. thank you for inspiring me.
FiLthGrRL7: ummm
FiLthGrRL7: no
and poems. i've been attacked multiple times on and about my poetry and/or ideals about poetry - when those who attack me have no ideals what-so-ever themselves ( that or they're EXCUSE is "that sucks james" or "you suck james" or "you're stupid james" or "wow thats dumb james" ... pssh ) from now on i will not acknowledge / and not defend myself against people who have no EXPRESSED stance on things : and will eventually ween myself away from them.
it is not that i am concerned with right or wrong - however - more with why and how
as for molin rouge > my take on it would be to say that it is entirely necissary to rationalize the fact that women in general are all sexually abused whores - and society's manner in which one has to deal with itself. if you've ever dated a whore then you'd understand the whole entire of the movie - as to me it hit me hard in some points - and if i wasn't as in control of myself as i am i would have ( much like mike ) cried three or six times - luckily however i know better than that : and get on with life. anywho --- let's go over the four points of a movie!
1. cinemetography : we'll say good colors, good "focus" and definately nice film quality - that i'll give you - and as for the 'fast moving camera angle' in which the director is for, and which jimmoi hates him for, i'd have to say that they are ok - but there are definately TOO MUCH - as jimmoi said : "He tries too much to be flashy" -- and i'll give you that for sure. on a scale of one (bad) to five (good) - i give the film a 3.5 for filmwork.
2. character development : we come to natrually attatched ourselves to the main-character "the writer" -- merely because he's the only character with a fleshed out sense of being. the rest of the characters ( yes, even the supporting actress ) - are entirely face-value characters with no true "feeling". As for this ( with the same scale ) i'd have to give it a 1.25
3. plot / story development : with little-to-no surprises, with the exception of the deviation from it's own predictablity ( definately no "THE GAME" - but not as bad as "THIRTEENTH FLOOR" ) - however maintaining a sort of "new idealism" for our age in which plaugruism reigns supreme > and where one would normally blush at "yes - this isn't mine - but i'm using it" - the film practually stands up proudly affirming that - which in itself must be admired. I think it not only plaugarizes other films / songs - and instead of feeling ashamed of it actually states, rather nonchalantly : "does it matter, anyway?" -- where some of my associates laughed ( and most of the audience ) - and where some of my associates were rather angered ( ... ) at some of the suprising plaugaristic points in the film > i sat there and just realised that maybe
4. idealistic probability : my own category - how much worth was the film or a better way of putting it was there a point asides from making money off of people willing to waste an hour of their time to see things move on a large piece of flat paper ( pending on where you are - it could be a big round dome ;) -- i'd have to give it a raging 5 points in this - as i'm sure mike will agree - it is a breath of fresh air in the "romance / love" department of movies - and believe he stated it the best when tryint to explain " It takes bits and pieces of every love story there was - and meshes them together to state that it isnt the idiosyncracies of love that make it what love is - but rather the feeling" -- that is entirely ... - whatever word means that "not direct quote, recalled from memory"
5. overall : with nicole kidmann writing around on a bed moaning in ecstacy listening to poetry being recited it makes me want to find a woman who wears corsets and gets off on poems ( it'd make my life much easier than it already is ) - also making me slightly attracted to red heads. the hedonistic pleasures of "the underworlders" with their flashy dances and showing-off of leg-wear also were a plus ( i went for a 7$ peep show and got what i came for ) - all in all if you take my five answers and get the average you'll get a score of 3.18 - but it depends on what you're willing to spend 7$ on. if you're like me and have a sexual fetish with legs / leg wear / socks / stockings / thigh-highs and so on - then the film is a definate 7 STAR rating ( yes, out of 1 - 5 ) - if you're going for a thought-full movie however - a measley TWO AND A HALF STAR rating.
such is life.
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