Aaron ............ I have a few things for you ...........

First I would say that a great book for you to look into is wittgenstien "on certainty" .......

Have you ever watched a movie, seen the characters moving about and heard them speek ?.. Somehow they are bound, predetermined shapes and forms... It is as though the motions they make are not actions, the sounds they utter are not words. Every step and murmer has allready happined in a sense, it lies ahead to be sure, but it is bound to happin, bound by the frames on a reel. I believe you are asking a question more simply understood thus. How can one know that there is not some reel of frames and some magnetic tape, that holds our every motion, intuition, thought and feeling ?. Is all that I am not bound in some way by a preconception allready designed to be thus and I preconcieved to think myself free and existent ?... Descarte's axiom states with bold profunity "I think therefore I am" .. and what could such a thing say if not that at least on some magnetic strip lies thoughts without reason? If you read the meditations on first philosophy you might see that Descarte was in a very similar frame of mind when he devised this axiom and I believe he means to say that wether it be by fate or accident, by bound preconception or by true and unrestricted freedom, He thinks for better or for worse and that is inescapable... He cannot silence thought or throw it away, and he finds it grounded in this thought and notion of self that self must be by virtue of existence apart from nothing...Have you ever asked yourself "Why this then and not a void ?".... does the absence of a void not determin the existence of a being, and that you are alone, not show that this being must be you ?.............

As for the impossibility of some objective absolute.. I repeat " the notion of non-absoluteness if to be considered as applying, must of necessity, be absolute, and hence by it's own absolute applicability not be absolute......Does this not bother you ?.. to know that when you insist that nothing is absolute you intern insist that sometimes some things are absolute ?"........ This is why I believe not only "I think therefore I am" but in addition "I think therefore the universe is"