{Doing things}...! and for what purpose ?

I have discovered something recently which ought to be of some importance to everyone, I will talk of it shortly. I have been considering the notion of actions taken and what meaning they may have, what purpose ,if you will, is there in doing anything ?.. It would seem to anyone that most of the activities we engage in only serve a very small and superficial purpose in the grand scheme of things, so why do we do them..? We have this concept of a perhaps higher state of being in which all actions taken have a sufficeintly justified and reasonable importance which is nearly all encompasing, a sort of divine purpose. From this vantage (having knowledge of higher actions/higher purpose) we can look down upon most activity as serving only to distract one from persuing this greater action which may have roots somewhere in introspective self deconstruction and analysis. Of course we are only distracting ourselves from the grim reality that all the value of action and placement is entirely assigned by us and hence is subject to our emtional attachements, that is to say, how good we feel about an action is very emotional and we can never detach our emotion from the good/value of an action taken. We must realize that our emotional attachements are deeply connected with our selves, that is, attached to our individual self identity. We can easily affect the feelings that one has by manipulation of the environment that they are in, it ought to be obvious to you that (YOU) are basically a human version of your environment and essentially become out of date as it changes and are constantly being updated (we sometimes call this growing or learning). You will die and pass on, your (personality) is incapable of gaining a higher state of being. This is not to say that there are no higher states of being, I happin to know as a fact that you have a soul and that this soul is currently in a higher state of being. It is just that the having a personality is the state of being that you are in and to transcend that state is to lose a self concept, that is to say, having a self is a state of being and all states of being beyond that are devoid of personal attachement and idiosyncratic tendancies. In such a state all concepts of value of action are vapor (they tend not to exist). It is to be taken that your personality(self) is basically a pathetic and superficial being which comes to exist as a byproduct of the souls activity in the mortal plane, when you die you yourself vanish into nothingness, (sure the soul goes on to other things, but nothing of you is left).. your personality (concious state) is not attached to anything but this world and vanishes when your soul decides it time to do something else. This is not as bad as it sounds, it is just the way things are. But hey, you exist and are reading this right now thing I am a nut and you probubly don't like a word of it (good for you you self centered ego which is superficial and capable of non-existance and hence having no bearing on the grand scheme of things or the ultimate state of reality can't affect my taste !).. The point is, all talk of the meaning of ones activity is ridiculous, being that you are a temporary state of matter there is no reasonable beliefe that anything you do can have any divine impact or importance. You are emotionally attached and can not transcend that simple and superficial level of conciousness, should the world in which you live be totally different your emotionally attachements and preferences for arrangements of matter would differ accordingly. The best one can hope to do is assemble a simple set of "meaningful" activites {which of course will fail under anything other than a cursory examination} and follow through with these gaining feelings of satisfaction as you go along becuase you are so simply controlled by your emotional states. By doing this you will gain feelings of fulfillment (haveing fulfilled some desire) and in general will have feelings of satisfaction and also some concept of a purpose for what you are doing (even though these will be entirely arbitrary and forever irrelivent much like you the one doing the actions to begin with...).. So put all notions of purpose and meaning out of your mind because you are not a being which is capable of having any.. you are subject entirely to this world and can only exist within it... Live in it and fulfill your pathetic desires (might as well take advantage of what is in front of you..) The old saying goes
It is both ridiculous and foolish to wait at a locked door (being the door to spiritual enlightenment) while an open door awaits (being the superficial state of self fulfilling crap that is your reality {the one you can't exist outside of}..).............. Love Mike ......... = ) {stick that in your pipe and smoke it... I suggest a life devoted to relations with women and meeting new and interesting people (also reading good books just for the hell of it...).. I might also suggest a good paying job so that you can buy nice things and gloat to your friends about how ridiculously expensive they are... even better, just sit and daydream about all the best possible lives you could lead and then don't sweat a damnd thing you are just going to be dead any way.............)