I wake up at 11.11am

another day has begun. I take a shower. like I've taken a shower yesterday. I brush my teeth - much as I had yesterday. I look into my sink and do not find an ant. I had placed an ant in the sink yesterday. someone must have flushed him down. I feel sad. I shrug it off. after all - it was just an ant I had placed in the sink. Slowly making my way back to my room I realize I had music on last night. I hear it playing in the background. I know the lyrics. I remember that if you play music in the background when you're asleep that you'll know the lyrics to it. I laugh. not really a laugh, just a shrug-of-a-laugh. I wonder what day today is. I get to the computer / I look at the taskbar / oh wow - look paw, it's Sunday. Everyone is at church praying for forgiveness for kicking that sick dog, sucking off that old man for 45$, for hitting that young man in their BMW and not stopping for assistance. Pray away your sins. where was I? Oh. I got to the computer.

" its just begun ... its just begun ... its just begun ... "

so chants the lyrics of the song. I sit here for a moment. looking at myself from above. wondering if all the things in my head are seriously even existing - if what I'm thinking right now has a validity to it that I can " count on " and I laugh. Then I think that's all I've done since I woke up is laughing. I laugh too much. at too many different things.

so I check my email :

Service Problem
The Address Book server is currently undergoing maintenance. Please try again later.

(Service Problem WM0042)


great. oh well.
I go to the board. mike has been ranting some. funny. I laugh. maybe the three of us are cynics. but fuck that. who cares for being dubbed cynics. Bonnie compliments Mike. Bonnie doesnt seem to understand the board is not for compilments. I hate compliments. and I hate my associates being complimented. It's a disease. A superficial manner of communication. It has no substance.

and then out of the blue - people IM me.
three at a time. I close each window.
I pay no attention.

I went to browse the internet / hoping this time not to run into anything abstract as clown pornography. And then I ran into Impartial Philosophy -- which I didnt read much of / but did browse through. Interesting in the least. A fly buzzes by. I laugh. I dont know why, but I did. I move on looking for something interesting.

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there wasnt much left. so I figured I'd have some fun with google.
I searched for " Animals are Dumb " - and then hit "I feel lucky!"
this is what I got in return.
cute. I then searched for " today death slow many " and got the slow death of the fast breeder - and laughed some more. man oh man. today is a good laughing day.

so i searched up some more random words that came to mind :
yellow circles pain
burning oink eternal
slime self sea

ok. enough of that.
and enough of this.