must i continue to see it? what will i do without it? can i exsist anymore without it? i wish i were without it, but i love it! i need to find a way to get away from all of this. it's driving me crazy in an odd sort of happiness. then again, it makes me go into depression everytime i think about it. how did i ever get into all of this? i don't even remember it was so long ago. i hope i can escape, but who is to really say.

look at where the time has gone... my leg is all scraped and bruised. damnable train. now i am limping with both legs. stepping off the train, always be sure to look down and make sure there is ground where you are stepping and not a black dirty dusty gap before the cement. *argh*

astronamy is a very fun class... to bad i don't understand what they are saying, it probably wouldn't be half as boring. next monday i am going to a large telescope observatory place for 6 hours. that will be fun! :)

i have found myself drawn to the stars more and more lately... a kind of connection to home. i see the same ones here you do there only they are much brighter here. it has been getting colder here now. in two days it will be my old friends birthday back there. odd how i actually remember dates once i'm away from it all.

i have come to realize that my carpal-tunnel is slowly but surely getting worse. that is great considering i paint, draw, write, and type on a consistant basis everyday. i miss being able to go to the library and get a good english book. the majority of the english books over here are very boring, though i have found a few that are okay. i love the castle i go to school next to. it's over 1200 years old, has the old moat and everything. i like to imagine what it was like back in the 'day'. i wonder what it would have been like to live in those times. *sighs*

i hate memorizing the names of most things, as if to give them a lable is highly symbolic. oh well, that is the society of the world.


Om att älska dig skulle göra en slav av mig, då skulle jag frivilligt spendera mitt live kedjor.

Du är inte här men jag kysser din kind,
en kyss jag sänder med en smekande vind,
öppna ditt fönster, ställ det på glänt,
för vinden du känner är kyssen jag sänt.

now i will not loose those. :) enigma.

knowing what i do, what can i do? u told me not to worry over any of it but i do. there is no way around this thing.

*kramar självst hårt*
Tarwyn