What the hell ?

I opened a free checking account with Timberland Savings Bank the other day... sounds well and good right ? I got a free gift with my new account, hot damn! I had the choice of a 51 Piece Tool Kit or a Backpack - being smart as I am, I chose the tool kit for my car.

Tool kit contains - 9 Tools
1 Tape measure
1 Small Roll of Tape
40 Nails/Wall Hooks/other wall hanger things.

. . . . It was free, but it's still lying! Kripes and Kraps man!

All you bums out there better be watching HBO on Sundays - Band of Brothers 9pm PST, ( Usually 1hr long unless there's two shows after the other ) 10 part WW II series by Tom Hanks and Steven Spielberg. Cool stuff, I keep 'searching' for my grandfather because he was part of the 101st Airborne during those events. Kinda hard to see dead men in movies though eh ?

Not having HBO is not an excuse for not watching. Got that!?

yea... goes to watch some late night TV

i think i'd listen to a song where i guy spouted the digits of pi. it's the magic number.

don't let them fool you into thinking 3 is the magic number... oh no.

it's pi.

speaking of: blind melon - three is the magic number

good song, but speaks of evil

*shifts eyes*

oh, my! Could it be September 18th? Now, why is that date sooooo important? Oh, that's right! Tori's new album came out today!!! I went to the record store long long ago, before it even opened, to sit and wait for over an hour, and i got the cover I wanted {you see, there were four dofferent ones!} and I got a promotional poster! but Pinkos didn't. Did you guys know that they just throw those things away!?! Yeah-so next week, when they take the giant Tori's down, they're gonna call me so that I can have a giant Tori, too. It's as big as my door, which has me thinking. . .

So, yeah. I was a little disappointed at first, because Tori covered that evil M&M guy, but she did a wonderful job of it. She re-wrote the music to that 'I killed your mom, let's throw her in the river' '97 Bonnie and Clyde song, and it sounds so good. I love Tori. I wish more slugs agreed with me, because she really is the most wonderful Tori to ever live. So, yeah. That's all. Except that I want to tell Pinkos that I'm wearing a hat, even though it hasn't rained for six days. . .

err, i'm not very good with complicated html and scripts but anyone know a way i can indicate when i'm connected and not? kinda like icq's thing, but customizable. i assume it can be done with javascripts... but... shrug.

no more no more, coffee bad, evvvvvvvvvviiiiiiiiiillllllllllll thing! hehehehehehe... capachino..:P eewy. black coffee worse.... no more no more for me. need to sleep. yes? no.... crazy child... heh... that me.

question things, tis FUN! :)

say there is this relationship, and all the guy wants is sex and to be with other women as well, but the guy thinks that the girl will obviously want more. now then, the girl acctually wants the same thing as the guy except it's other men she wants, and she tells him this. now he gets upset because what he thought she would want she didn't and she only wanted what he wanted. so he gets into an arguement over the fact that she doesn't care, that she is a whore for only wanting sex and other men. now then, she asks him why she is a whore for only wanting sex from him and to go about her business, when all he wanted in the first place was the exsact same thing and why he wasn't happy about it. he says because women are supposed to be faithful and true... and be into the whole i love you thingy mi-bopper. (does this make sense to you?)

now guys and girls of this lovely bord... what would you do in his/her place... ? are women whores for wanting more than one and if so, why? if both can go about and have some fun, then isn't it just a mutual thing? would you ever like to be in this kind of relationship?

haha... more????

yes/no... ? who cares. :)

hahaha... need more coffee... umm no, but yes... is it so much, 8 cups? MuHAHahAHAHhAHa sleep is so nice.... wOrm... "blah, blah, blah, sleep is good, good is sleep..."

so very very furrily true... god natt all... jag alskar dig! <---- i love you! ha - heehee.

mud... "one eyed snake"? *LOL* :P

well, at least he is having fun! *laughs hysterically on the floor* got to LOVE sleep deprivation...

i know my spelling is probably all messed up, but oh well! :D

hej då...................... Tarwyn

shit
today is only the 18th?
well fuck.

correction about that wednesday thing /
make it friday.
this friday.
friday 11.45 / sharis.

son of a bitch.
gaw-damn.

you know what that means?
that means all you school-people can show too.
Aaron, Bonnie, Jesse ... you name it.
you get there damnit.
doooooooooo eeeeeeeiiiiiiiit

Vad?

hehe.. how much chocolate can one person eat? I don't know yet... I bought 5 killos of nummy nummy candy and I'm only about 1½ killos through so far... nummy nummy icecream. Had some with chocolate chavings/cookie stuff in it. So much junkfood over here... but I miss american junk food too. *sigh* what to do, what to do.

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if anyone wants to use snail mail and write me or send me things, * hehe :) like that would happen! * my address over here is:

Tarwyn Reichert
Idrottsgatan 16 A
692 31 Kumla
SWEDEN

NO THREATENING LETTERS to the other family members please. :) If any of you want me to buy anything for you while I'm over here, e-mail me what it is you want, I will find out it's price, and then tell you the price of it. fun fun fun... the sun is coming into my window... FAN BAJS! :)

hej då... Tarwyn

Okay so now after three days of cold air I am incapable of being "creative". Cold air somehow inhibits my creativity and reduces me to studying ... ohh well
I have to mention something.. I am not sure exactly where all this stuff is coming around about poetry being "free for the unique person to find their own meaning... etc ... etc ... etc BLABLALABLA"... This is false.. anything which has a meaning which is "unique for each person" is something which has no inherent meaning at all and thus reading it or viewing it and "finding" some meaning is actually just you making it up.. Maybe some creative writers actually think that their work is "free of meaning", which is an interesting concept in itself, however, I don't work that way. Everything I write is designed to express some particular thing and only that thing. Fancy if you find more then that. Either it is a conceptual meaning or "Idea" or it is an emotional meaning or "feeling".. either way there is particular intention in what I write and the words I chose and order I place them in are "designed" to express what I am thinking or feeling at the time...... So you can damn well be sure that there are in fact WRONG ways to interpret what I write and hence why there are in fact people who are not able to "understand" it...I.E. discover the actual expressed meaning.

regards.....Mike

well i'll be god damn'd. it worked.

so now i've really calmed down.

all this in a matter of less then 10 minutes.

anyway, if you ever felt the need for 1.2 gigs of mp3s or a few applications or games go here: ftp://147.133.135.250

it's mine and it's almost always up.

if i set up a mod-chip.com account and got peoplet to click on it i could up my ftp from about 3gb to 40gb.

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yeah, and about retiring from posting... i guess i was in more of a downer mood that day. and as thus i tend to exagerate. it indeed did mean that'd be posting just every once in a while.

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i tried to post just a minute ago. i mash down the 'post and publish' button and nothing happens for a while. so i start to get a little aggrivated. i was already a little angry because i had before spilled my cereal. after cleaning it up i only had half a bowl of corn pops when i had started with an over sized bowl. i believe you see why i was mad.

so i let it be and let it do whatever the fuck it's doing. so i go to visit a web site. and i don't even remember what it was i'm so pissed. anyway, i go type the url and my keyboard had quit working. it sometimes decides that it likes to quit working randomly. that really pissed me off. i don't care what anyone says, pounding on your keyboard calling it vulgar names then proceeding to pound on your computer desk DOES relieve anger.

so now i'm more calm.

if i hit the post and publish button and nothing happens this time... i think i'll go insane and asphyxiate myself in my sleeping bag.

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mud, you need to change my e-mail at ze bottom of page. mr.goldfish@bigfoot.com. i've been trying to say that for a long time but i haven't been able to post as per whatever makes things go wrong is anally raping me this week.




noodle

LENNY KRAVITZ SUCKS ASS

or well / his new album does. I damn well hate listening to it. And I damn well hate listening to DISTURBED's " Down with the sickness "- and I damn well hate with a passion what ALIEN ANT FARM has done to smooth criminal. MUSIC THESE DAYS SUCKS ASS. With exception to System of a Down - it seems they are good good stuff. Could they possibly be the " Dead Kennedys " of my time? Because of the "anti-american" stance the lead singer seems to be taking because of the ... " ordeal " - it's funny. Because their newest release Toxicity is the #1 selling album in america as I type this. Go bloody figure.

I averaged 85 today on the way home. Halfway there a truck was seen in the distance. Then it kept incoming. Then it was right on my ass. I hate trucks being on my ass because then the light from their lights blinds the fuck out of me - they dont have their brights on / it is just that they're higher off the ground, so it just zooms right to the back of my head. So I speed up / it speeds up. So I slow down to 55 ( it is 35 throughout by the way ) and he doesnt fucking pass me. So then another car comes ahead of us going 40. So I slow down and go 40. He still doesnt pass. The car turns off the road / I speed up to 75 / he still maintains RIDING MY ASS. Eventually I got to the turn to 507 and was taking a left. The truck took a right. I looked over at it and at the top of the truck was ... jesus chroist. The red and blue lights of an officer. This fucker was riding my ass all the way. I thought to myself why wasnt I pulled over? Maybe he took pictures and then I will be fined later. damn. really weird.

as for my brother's ... " poetry " ...
now that was funny.
and then the thought of Bonnie being self concious when " jogging "
even more funny when I imagine Mr. Wisness stopping by after a couple of drinks to " watch the girls " ...

HA HA HA

I get paid today. So here's the deal. Tomorrow night ( which would be WEDNESDAY NIGHT ) if you can make it to Sharis ( the usual place ) at 11.45pm - I will be there. Hopefully a couple of you saps from the board ( steven / andy / jeff / mike / ... shit, adam isnt on the board! ) will show up. that'll be fun. and i'll have money for myself again. FUN.

blog hop is down. i dont know why.
jimmoi didnt remind me of my +2 hour pay.
bastard. him and his mutual funds.

I have found a startling " idea " about " the self " in which I was going to stop by mike's house tonight and talk to him about / but I didnt want to go there and have him not be home and be out with some drunken woman cleaning her molars with his one eyed snake. Last time that was ... disturbing. I also have ... larger plans.

we shall see.
wont we?
wait - where did I put my eyes. . .

Sparse


It has been a very long time since i have posted. There are reasons, mostly because i have been having trouble with my modem. Right now i am using an old 33.3 kbps modem, so i hope it is understandable as to why i have yet to post until today. I am still working to get it to work, but having trouble with it.

I have spent some time reflecting on this World Trade Center fiasco. I will talk about that in a different post however. I am also watching and observing and making note, as any good scientist, and psychologist would do. Maybe it is also a sign that i am having trouble with coming up with a concrete feeling of the whole thing on my own. Who knows.

I am also having a little trouble with the UW. Mostly, i thought i lost my dorm room due to a clerical error. I paid a deposit of $240 dollars, and they sent it to the wrong thing, so it was logged that i didn't pay it. I've been taking care of that too for the past few days. I have a library fine as well, which is a bitch. Oh it keeps on getting better and better, doesn't it folks.

I should have everything taken care of by tomorrow or Wednesday. But then again, no one cares about my little petty problems. Hell, even i don't fully care that much about them.

My girlfriend has been good enough to help me by giving me a place to stay while i handle things up in the U. Otherwise it'd be a daily commute, and since i have no car insurance, and no current job, that would be a real bitch. I hate commutes anyway. And from Roy. A vasectomy would be far less excruciating.

For a new bit of fun, i'm gonna scan some pictures of my idiot brother, Luke, and post about them. I figure, i have internet access, and i know how to use it, why not use it to annoy, piss off, and embarass my younger brother, who is an annoyance.

Now, i know that it is the job of most older brothers to bash on and attack their younger brothers. Case in point, the relationship that james and his brother michael have. But my relationship with my brother is no where like james' with his brother. My brother is a bonafide idiot. Just ask Andy. He'd tell you the same.

Rachelle, you know him, don't you. I could of sworn he said something about you...maybe i'm wrong though. All of you that go to Bethel might recognize him once i get a picture and post it of him. Hahaha, i'm gonna enjoy embarassing his ass.

Anyway, i'll post about him when i can.

I need to go for now...but i'll post sometime later.

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err... i upgraded my status from 'not posting' to 'once in a while'. i couldn't actually tear myself away permanently.

mud, you need to change my e-mail to: mr.goldfish@bigfoot.com

i.am sucks liberal quantities of ass

Christmas, should be intersting this year. I'll admit I've been away from home for several months at a time without my parents, on my birthday, and other holidays, but never Christmas. All the usual family traditions, cutting down a young wild tree, baking sugar cookies and putting detailed frosting designs on them, cooking dinner, opening presents at odd hours of the night/morning... making breakfast for the family... watching my puppies attack their gifts and rip the wrapping paper.... just stuff like that.

Oh well, all goes hand in hand with escaping my home and everyone! hehe... miss all of you! And yes, I do care for all of you that I know is some way, even YOU mud. :) hej då... god natt! :)

me like, me like, Mike... I think I understand part of it... but who can really tell? It's left up to each and every individuals perception. :)

uh oh....

wind in the leaves, trees, hair... bend down on your knees
cry, laugh... joy unreminising of the past
lone eyes - snowy sand drip on by
pass the war along
dish of skin, bloodred with/not in
kill me, die?
never know... hold eyes in hands.

want some?


Yeah, I'm doing great over hear Bonnie... all the cute boys to myself, girls too if I were bisexual. :)

Found a way to write my thoughts and all of that ........... But who can understand them...............

Believe in
World outside of me
it moving randomly, or that it be, carelessly, there existing now.
That you outside of me and self of you outside reality.
Three places now I see.
You think you more, or are am, but at least could be, reasoning and purposefull.
I see you moving randomly, not quite chaotic really.
Maybe slave to greater thing, like ant know of the hill.
I see me moving randomly and know, or there are no, reasons, for me to be me
but at least, I am or could be, agent free, ant knowing of the hill.
I aware of me.... are you aware of me being aware of you ?
Where comes a uniformity to like this type of clutter, preference for some arbitrary kind of life, or rather, way of being.
This be am or was, I thought at least, I know to be greater than you or I, but less than me, outside of us, hill we building...
Are we sure that we are free ?
Is ant who agent of the hill, he, is he almost thought, he free.
Life all regarding Me....................................

I like it so much I post it to make sure it in the log..............Alone in your mind hiding away in makebelieve tomorrows .. I am such and such and such will be.. instead of looking right in front of you at harsh reality and saying ..This is me........

That sucks. Strange, too, Seagate and Samsung are both pretty good drives....Do you still have the same power supply, logic board, etc? It might be a power supply or IDE controller sending spikes that the drives just can't take for very long. Either way, that blows. Try smacking it [hard] with something like a screwdriver handle right when you put power to it...every now and then that gets it working, but usually only when the spindle motor stops. Sometimes it works for that too. Good luck.

Later.

I got home in the duration of one tool song.
I hit 98mph.
my father asks me : " when will you have a day off? "
all I could think of was that our government is somewhat anarchic
I told him : " not any time soon. "

he said " you've been working for twenty days straight "
...
I left the room.

sometimes I believe I may need a brain enema.
but then I realise that would do no good.
there is nothing to wash out.
no reasons. no answers.
no light at the end of the tunnel,
nor distingushable tunnel to guage distance.
just some fabrication I imagine to be myself.
in a world full of mirrors,
and ghosts. phantoms. shadows.

and the occasional echo.
echo.
echo.
echo.

all preferences for order are simply preferences for different types of clutter..................
If the universe were to end, would it not be in self destruction ?